Getting Sticky

O'Brien's Chocolate Cake
Yeah, I know, another food picture. I really don't have an eating disorder-- it's just that it was so pretty, and sort of a study in browns. Had a real rough time getting the star-tip swirls down, and never did get it right, but it looks ok, so ok's where it's gonna stay.

I'm learning to have more than one standard (*Perfect*)-- I'm learning to have quite a few standards, and not just about arting.

I'm learning to accept things, or rather, I'm TRYING to learn to accept things, as they come. Totally not easy for me. I usually just walk away from something and don't look back if it isn't "just right," or almost, anyway. I've always figured it's a waste of time trying to change things I don't like much-- instead, I'll just go find something I like better. Sometimes, if I reallyreally like something, I'll change it, but not if it's too much change. If I'm reallyreally liking something, then I don't want there to have to BE too much change. I think I just repeated myself.

Same for situations. Some are just not worth the energy, so I'm outta there. Others are not quite too bad, so I'll stick around a while to see how things start turning out. Some are actually pretty wonderful, and who wants to leave?

I'm finding myself in one of those situation-type things. So far, it's unfamiliar territory, but it's pretty terrific. Kinda sticky. It was also a surprise, and I'm not crazy about surprises. I'm too controlling, and surprises by their very nature are not meant to be controlled. But I like GOOD surprises! And this was a very good surprise.

I guess this is one of those times when I'll stick around and see how things go. It's making me discover things about myself, good and bad (I'm not afraid of the bad-- maybe I can fix it!). It's also a tremendous boost to my self-esteem, and we can all use that once in a while.